Blank.

Eversince I started posting blogs, I haven't yet posted something that will make a good read. I never posted anything that is full of thoughts and information. I always post random things, random happenings and all things that pops naturally in my head. This post will be another one of those random ideas I've got. I type words that pops in my head, write random stuff from any topic, but actually my head is blank. I have a lot of ideas going around my brain everytime, but everytime I try to write and share it my brain hesitates. It almost feels like my thoughts are running away from me everytime I try to share them. Sounds stupid, eh? Yeah, I realized it's insane. Kinda bit complicated, but that is how my brain works. LOL. If you have been reading everything I post, you will notice that all those things I have posted are actually the things I'm experiencing everytime. I've been writing like this blog is my personal journal, and I realized it really is. (Thanks to Cupcake.) As long as I don't hurt anyone with what I write, and I don't break any rules, I can express myself more. I should really be expressing more, and caring less about other people's comments and reactions. After all, I write to express what I really think. One of the things I reflected this month, is to care more about who I think I am and not what others think about me. I should have visualized that before. I always envision that people will only criticize me, that everything I do will be judged. Now I know. I know that no matter what others say, I will still be me, and no judgement or critisizm can change who I am. So for those people, who had problems with their self- confidence, try boosting your ego. I have always been the shy girl, never expressing what I really think, never really participating in anything. I will try to boost my ego a little bit more too. There really is no problem with that, after all we only live once. We have to live our life the way we wanted it to be, and not the way critics say. If you think your happy with your low self- esteem, then don't change yourself. You are always good with what your happy with. A little thought I have today: No matter how insane your attitude is for others, if your being yourself, then you are an AMAZING PERSON. And no one can hinder that.

i'll try being more confident form now on. wish me luck. lol. XD
that's all. thanks for taking time to read my post.

xo,
nikka ♥

Almost July.

Wow. Time flies. Really fast. It almost the end of the month. July is coming, and it's really nice to welcome the rainy days. There are so many things I always look forward to every month of July. It is almost my favorite month of the year. Maybe because I was born in the month of July. Yes, I'm turning seventeen. Yay! :)) Oh well, it is still the month of June and I'm living life to the fullest before the sixth month of 2010 ends. This month has been an okay month for me. I realized a lot of things about life and I'm looking forward to being more optimistic. I made so many realizations about life, about so many things that I really never thought about before.

This month I watched the movie Starstruck starring STERLING KNIGHT. The hottest guy on Earth for me. (Atleast, for this month.) I've always wanted to be rich and famous. I always wanted to be wealthy, to buy everything I WANT. Everything. The values I've learned isn't really a part of the story, but it made me think that wealth can never really buy happiness. Even if we have all those material things we wanted, we would still feel incomplete. I have always been thinking that SHOPPING can make you happy anytime, that having all the coolest stuff will make you feel like your in heaven. No. It wouldn't. It's just temporary, like everything else in this planet. Yeah, that's it, I'm running out of things to say. XD The movie BTW, was AWESOME. Sterling Knight has a really nice voice. I so love him. LMAO! :))

That's all for now. I really have nothing to say anymore. XD

xo,
nikka ♥

p.s. i want to post something about FASHION anytime soon. i'm am being a fashion junkie right now. lol.

First post for the month of June. :))

I haven't been posting here for the past weeks. I really had no plans of posting something yet. Oh well, I guess I have to do this randomly again. Today is an okay day. LOL! I had a good time with my friends, as usual. During our Insocio class, my friend Gemmie (a.k.a my CUPCAKE :D) reminded me about my blog which actually ended up with me doing this. HAHA! Arrgh, I cannot concentrate. *sighs* I don't think I will be able to end up with something relevant right now. I'll post something immediately after my brain works.

Therefore, this post is non-sense and no one should be reading this. LOL. :))

xo, nikka ♥

ps. Thanks Cupcake for reminding me about my blog. HAHA! :))